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“Good better best. Never let it rest. Until good is better and better is best!”


Kurt, Carrie and I

My last post, was on June 24th 2014. I had started the 100 Happy Days or 100 Days Happy. I believe I made it to day 2. I’m guessing some of you might have wondered what happened. Well, my last post I left you asking for prayers and thoughts for my Auntie Bea because she was in the hospital. The following evening, June 25th 2014 she passed away. She was surrounded by her family and my mom was able to go be with her and her family that evening. I will continue with my 100 Happy Days but I probably won’t start it back up until August just because I’m still trying to sort through my thoughts, emotions and memories. I know though, that Auntie Bea would encourage me to be happy for not just 100 days, but every day.

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She was the kind of woman that saw the silver lining in everything. She was always there for everyone and had an amazing sense of humor. She wasn’t my mother, or a blood relative of any sort, but she still was family to me.

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I still find myself fighting back the tears, and trying to remember happy memories with her, but it still hurts. Knowing I’ll never be able to see her smile, or hear her voice again. Her family had a celebration of her life a couple of weekends ago and we were lucky to be able to spend that day with all of them. It was beautiful. I can’t even begin to express how loved Bea was. So many people showed up to celebrate her life.

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Something everyone agreed on that day, was just how much love and happiness she had to share with everyone. She mad such an amazing impression on everyone’s lives, and we are all very blessed to have had her in our lives. Everyone.

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I’ve been writing this post for a week now, and can’t bring myself to type up everything I want to. So I’m just going to end it before I continue to ramble. One day, I hope to be able to organize my thoughts and be able to share some of my memories with Auntie Bea.

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“Good humor is a tonic for mind and body. It is the best antidote for anxiety and depression. It is a business asset. It attracts and keep friends. It lightens human burdens. It is the direct route to serenity and contentment.”


Day 2: 100 days of Happy:

Today, memories of my childhood are making me happy. As a child, my mother nannied for a family of 8. 6 kids two adults, and various pets (dogs, cats, fish…) most of my memories are with their family. Today, I’m filled with hilarious and wonderful memories surrounding their mom, my “Auntie Bea”

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I’m going to share just a few with you today. I found out yesterday that even after an intense battle with tumors, which she won, she is not doing very well and suffered a heart attack. My heart is with her and her family today and every day.

She was always smiling, and loved being with her children. Birthdays in their house were always a big deal, and even if you didn’t want to, she would make you wear underwear on your head. :)

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When we were younger, their youngest, Kurt, and I would bring her slugs out of the garden and she would pay us for each slug we found and killed.

She was always there for us, if I (as I so openly did) cried she was there with a smile ready to make me laugh.

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She isn’t just a wonderful friend and mom, she was also an incredibly talented artist. As a child I remember staring at her work in awe. It just came so naturally to her, and I always remember dreaming of being as talented as she is.

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So, for day 2 of my 100 days of Happy series, I’m happy to have had the Burress family, and more specifically, Auntie Bea!

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100 Days of Happy.


This has been going around Facebook, and I’ve been thinking about doing it for a few months but didn’t want to do it on Facebook… so after thinking about it, I think this might be a great way to get back into the habit of posting more often… so here goes.

#Day1 #100daysofhappy
Today my beautiful and intelligent niece is the topic for my 1st post. She’s here visiting and I am forever grateful to have her in my life. I’m one lucky aunt!

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S’more cupcakes (my own recipe!)


So I took my “Little helper” to the store and we were both hungry (big mistake!) She talked me into buying a box of cake mix… once we got home I looked in my drawer at work to see if I could take a normal box cake and turn it into my own creation… that’s when I created this masterpiece. I’m sure others have made this but I’ve never had one and I didn’t snag this from anyone.

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S’more cupcakes (my own recipe!)


So I took my “Little helper” to the store and we were both hungry (big mistake!) She talked me into buying a box of cake mix… once we got home I looked in my drawer at work to see if I could take a normal box cake and turn it into my own creation… that’s when I created this masterpiece. I’m sure others have made this but I’ve never had one and I didn’t snag this from anyone.

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“Take this feeble mind And mold it into something better And help me realize that I won’t live forever…”


In life, a girl will make many friends. As a young girl a best friend is just about anyone who will play their favorite game or toy with them. As she gets older her best friend will become someone she trusts and typically becomes an extension of her family.

In her entire life girls tend to have more than one best friend. Sometimes you just grow apart, others you get in a big fight over something minor and become stubborn enough to never apologize.

In other (rare…but not really) situations are much worse. Typically in high school things become much more dramatic. One friend burns the other or just simply stops talking to the other.

There are 4 situations in my life where I’ve lost a best friend.

1) M, she and I went to elementary school together. In the 3rd grade she told me I wasn’t cool and that we couldn’t be friends. It hurt but what hurt more was when she made fun of me in front of her new friends.

2) T, she and I met in 5th grade. Over the years of our friendship anytime my family moved (even just 5 min away) she’d panic and tell me we couldn’t be friends anymore. She always calmed down and changed her mind but in the back of my head I knew it would end with me in tears. 9th grade rolled around and she came up from oregon to visit. I think that’s when she realized just how different we were. She visited once, and called me when she got home and told me we couldn’t be friends anymore because I didn’t fit in with her new life.

3) E, she kinda “adopted” me as a friend when my family moved to Washington. At first she was a great friend, but then as time wore on she’d tell others things I had told her in confidence. She was always manipulating me and using me to make herself look and feel better. I don’t think she ever considered me her real friend. By the end of my sophomore year in high school she killed my confidence and self esteem. She had all of her friends attack me and call me to “hang out” then ditch me. I remember nights of crying and my mom telling me to cut E out, but being 16 I thought it was just how friends treated each other. Now I realize it’s just really messed up.

Finally, the most recent and most hurtful. N, we met through another friend and her family was wonderful to me. She was such a sweet friend and always included others. Then one day, she just stopped replying to my texts/calls. It wasn’t just me she cut out, other friends too. It’s been 3 years since the last time I spoke to her but it still hurts. She recently got engaged, and is, apparently, getting married in a week… I just had hoped she would have at least explained what it was that I did or didn’t do that caused her to disappear.

Finding a best friend is so hard, and then having them just walk away is even worse. Tonight I’m having a hard time not dwelling on things I can’t change, but my struggles can be helpful for someone else.

Don’t hold grudges
Always forgive, but don’t always forget
Be honest and reliable
Before ending a friendship, make sure to think the situation throw, and ask yourself the following:
Did they intend to hurt our friendship?
Have I talked to them about my concerns?
How would I feel in their shoes?
Have I made the same mistake?
Do I want to end this friendship?

I know that tonight I’m going through and seeing if there are any friendships I may be able to strengthen rather than let wither away.

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” Oh, I, I needed you to trust me, trust me But you think that I’m crazy, crazy…”


A quick update for those that I have (temporarily) lost touch with. :)

The last few years EverSoLightly and I have tried to grow some herbs and veggies and flowers on out patio. And have failed miserably… so this year I was determined to make it work! For years (more than I know I’m sure) my mom has been going to Fred Meyer‘s Fuchsia Saturday. This year she passed all her wise wisdom and tips and I headed over to the sale.

Just a short description of the sale for those who don’t know:

Basically you buy (or bring from home) planters, then you buy all your plants at Fred Meyer and they plant them (and you don’t pay for soil!) How great is that?!

So I bought 2 new planters for the front, all the flowers I wanted and they planted them!  I bought all our herbs there too, but I planted them myself because our back patio planters are HUGE and heavy.

Then a few weeks later I found these cute planters for our front porch. Planted more flowers (purchased at Freddys too!) In those too. We bought a table (purchased on sale at the Fred Meyer’s founders day sale) and now we have a cute back and front patio!

Now time for photos!! (Oh and no this post wasn’t sponsored by Fred Meyer, I just like shopping there!)

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Planters after being planted at Freddy's

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Bought the mushroom are Freddy's too

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The buckets now face outward

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The table on our patio :)